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Monday, 22 June 2009

  • I could go on…


    Been able to find it miles away, something so strong it cannot decay,
    The scent intoxicating leaves me waiting, anticipating,
    But so many other times I thought that it was it, so much so it left me for a fit,
    A fit not so right, like when the shoe corner wraps around and squeezes your toe too tight…like when you just cannot hang the picture up quite right.
    But somehow something changed, renewed what I could have blamed…renewed what I thought could provide shame.
    Rearranged and changed over again, something that has already started has just begun to begin…and this is what we are in.
    My heart, our heart, is just the very smallest part,
    More to this I know, more to this than what we see or know…He must have something He wants to show…
    Could have rejected the idea over and over, because we just cannot always see what we need until things roll over…
    But somehow saved from something which would have kept us enslaved…
    I know the desire of our hearts are true to what we are supposed to do, it’s something I can see in me, but mostly in you.
    Even if this stops and halts still, you and I are the best in the mill,
    Only because of the grace that He chose to shed over this place…only because of the light we have chose to embrace.
    I saw your face today and it says more than I can say…miles away and still somehow it’s still okay…
    And I could go on about you, but know this one thing is true, I truly miss you.
    And I could go on about you, but know this one thing is true, I truly love you.

    Alexa Faith

                                         (Picture courtesy of Anberlin fan, Randy, MN)

Tuesday, 16 June 2009

  • Time to Face Freedom. For Wendy.

    Wishing to show some image of hope, I opened up the crystal box, the only thing left from you, the only thing I could see through.
    Yet, somehow, the only things to comfort were the clothes left in the wash, to help the dry the tears shed from loosing you.
    Wonder what it would be like to see you still alive, to see if you could thrive.
    Wonder at the many times you laid down with hope and anger, how many times you did not take the helping hands of a stranger.
    Wonder at the bruises you bore, the clothes that you wore, the curtains you tore.
    Wonder at the times the liquor got to you before you got to it,
    Wonder how much more you could have to tried to live without it.
    So the blame goes towards a poisoned liver, and while your daughter was high, the yellow-you made me quiver.
    What could I do? What can they do?
    The drink had got to you before you got to it,
    Wonder how much more you could have tried to live without it.
    You are the face my sister, you are the face of the lost before death I embrace.
    You are the face my sister, you are the face of the battle some will still face.
    And I won't forget you, not one moment as you have flown away, there is so much more to what freedom can say.
    It is time to face the freedom and now is the day.

    Alexa Faith


Tuesday, 09 June 2009

  • And our Conversation Always Runs Dry…

    Much too normal for anything formal…that is the truth.

    Much too selfish to really be helpless…it must be a spoof.

    Guided, it’s blighted…something so insensitive.

    Right, it’s tight…something too intensive.

    What is there to this life only to talk and walk?

    So only that in the mix freedom can be sought and achieved.

    And never was there a promise to know through such talk.

    Yet it is true it is in how we have perceived.

    But there is hope which promises we do not have to know…

    Everything, no we do not have to.

    But when we find truth it starts to show…

    And when it does there is nothing else more preferable to do.

     

    By Alexa Faith

  • Sometimes We Know What We Mean



    Maybe it is satisfaction.

    Maybe it fills in each interaction.

    Maybe it is true.

    Maybe it is right.

    Maybe it is just you.

    Maybe it is just right.

    But I don’t understand and maybe I never will.

    I don’t understand how you get your fill…

    And it is not that life is for us at all…

    Of course life is not much in living for things so small.

    But it comes down to things which are not material at all…

    So it is the conversations which really make it hard…

    They make it hard to actually think.

    Because both interrupt…both don’t trust.

    It’s like there’s some hidden card.

    And we’ve lost it because of how hard we think.

    And though maybe satisfaction seems to pop it’s head up here, it’s just not enough…

    Wonder how we can find any common ground,

    when both really just talk round and round.

    We could talk until our face is blue.

    We could paint a picture in only the primary’s hue.

    Maybe it’s not so simple…not so lit up.

    Maybe it’s fire is not content because something does not add up…

    So find me in this place and know my intention is only what I know is best…

    It’s somewhere where maybe we both might find rest.

    Without such biting and stinging we might be able to invest.

    I don’t know if it’s just me, but I’m finding freedom has more to undress.

    So if maybe we could just focus as some would say on common ground.

    Maybe then that would be when we understand each other’s real true sound.

    But know this and please take this as I mean…

    Maybe what we said is not what we mean.

     

    Alexa Faith

Tuesday, 02 June 2009

  • Currently
    Cities
    By Anberlin
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    We are now free to fly, free to truly live.

    I think we found that moment in someone else’s pocket

    because it seemed too real and too unreal at the same time.

    It was familiar, but new,

    Stunted, but true.

    Odd, but you, and me, we are going to be okay.

    In fact we are better than we were, that is, only today.

    I let go so long ago, while you trampled through the ground we thought we had once.

    And something so hidden made itself ridden, as soon as we found the points of trust.

    I loved so many things about the way you seemed, and maybe, you are just what I thought I had dreamed…

    But the truth is in the proof…for that was in our youth…yes, that was in our youth.

    So when children are children, well, they speak as children.

    And when people are people they begin to make it, somehow or another, back to some sinkhole.

    That is where we have to decide…to be honest or to hide.

    I finally chose to be honest…with myself first, and then with you, it was all too late I suppose.

    Clothes wear down, and you will probably never again see me wear another gown.

    And clowns even frown at the sight we had once portrayed;

    It made labeled, plastic enclosed food even somewhat decayed.

    But let’s not be rude for there is more to this…

    I have already let go, but I have learned from this.

    So my thoughts come simple or maybe plain, as a teenage pimple…

    I never meant to hurt you, and though your thoughts come from another view…

    Just know it was not intended to hurt you.

    So we must know something from all of this…at what price comes childish bliss?

    Maybe we bore a toothache or two… but I know, I learned so much from you…

    Lifelong lessons of which you cannot invent sessions to teach such things.

    And through it all I learned to find shelter in the shadow of His wings.

    And even today I have learned to stand more sure…so much more; it has made me more secure.

    But the truth it is this is not about me, but how from this, God can make a man free.

    Free of the hurt we inflict on ourselves.

    Free of the lies that the enemy tells.

    Free of the unwanted hurt others seem to give.

    Free to fly and truly free to live.

     

    Alexa Faith. Copyright.


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  • So born into a home of division it seemed, The truth is that much of it seems now a dream, For once what once was broken and torn down in two, Is whole and loved more than any human could pursue. Found in the depths of the darkness and scum, I had no vision of what I could become, But then came a river that would wash it all away, A river that flooded a life with what His love would say. Onto escape He took this hand and I saw He was dead, But soon He was risen, He is risen I said! He took it all, Jesus Christ is His name, This is new life, I will never be the same. Not ever to deny what love this is, This is the truth, this life is now His. So onto share this love even in weakness I stand, It is not by my might, but by His mighty hand.

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