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Monday, 28 September 2009
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By Anberlin
see relatedWe are now free to fly, free to truly live.
I think we found that moment in someone else’s pocket
because it seemed too real and too unreal at the same time.
It was familiar, but new,
Stunted, but true.
Odd, but you, and me, we are going to be okay.
In fact we are better than we were, that is, only today.
I let go so long ago, while you trampled through the ground we thought we had once.
And something so hidden made itself ridden, as soon as we found the points of trust.
I loved so many things about the way you seemed, and maybe, you are just what I thought I had dreamed…
But the truth is in the proof…for that was in our youth…yes, that was in our youth.
So when children are children, well, they speak as children.
And when people are people they begin to make it, somehow or another, back to some sinkhole.
That is where we have to decide…to be honest or to hide.
I finally chose to be honest…with myself first, and then with you, it was all too late I suppose.
Clothes wear down, and you will probably never again see me wear another gown.
And clowns even frown at the sight we had once portrayed;
It made labeled, plastic enclosed food even somewhat decayed.
But let’s not be rude for there is more to this…
I have already let go, but I have learned from this.
So my thoughts come simple or maybe plain, as a teenage pimple…
I never meant to hurt you, and though your thoughts come from another view…
Just know it was not intended to hurt you.
So we must know something from all of this…at what price comes childish bliss?
Maybe we bore a toothache or two… but I know, I learned so much from you…
Lifelong lessons of which you cannot invent sessions to teach such things.
And through it all I learned to find shelter in the shadow of His wings.
And even today I have learned to stand more sure…so much more; it has made me more secure.
But the truth it is this is not about me, but how from this, God can make a man free.
Free of the hurt we inflict on ourselves.
Free of the lies that the enemy tells.
Free of the unwanted hurt others seem to give.
Free to fly and truly free to live.
Alexa Faith. Copyright.
Sunday, 27 September 2009
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You are Still…
There was once a day when my sorrow could not stay away...those days must be gone because I cannot see the things of which I was so fond…those things mean nothing now even when they pop up and the world asks me how.
Maybe it seems like something new, but I know it's only You,
Who can truly make this heart for You.
And sorrow peaks it head again, but I know that even then,
You will make all things new.
So find me standing, bowing here, in the same place I was about 7 years, in the making,
even shaking, I will still hold onto You.
And even as my memories don't fade, you mold me in the right shape,
which is better than what I wanted, as it seemed so innate.
But changed for good is what I feared,
And oh the promises I also feared…
But you kept every last one… teaching me what is real and certain.
And though this world is a gun..
I cannot hide…
You’re inside…my life…
my world…
my mind…
heart…
soul…
sight.
And though my focus makes its fight…somehow You’re inside… this life…
this world…
its time…
start…
goal…
sight.
Though some forget or choose to hide…
You are somehow still inside.
Though some insist and kick and bite…
You are somehow still inside.
And as I fought and I kicked…
what it is I wanted to reject so quick.
But not a moment…
I’ll never forget…
You sat there every moment and did nothing but love and forgive.
So how can I not? How can I not?
I have to live… otherwise, I will rot.
There was once a day where sorrow could not stay away…
and You chose to take it all away.
And as my memories might still fade away…
I will always remember that day.
Monday, 21 September 2009
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I want to sit here all day…
I want to sit here all day…
And just wait until someone has something to say.
It seems they all died yesterday…making fun of each other and snickering for play.
I wonder why they do what they do… but somehow I know somewhere there is truth.
Beyond the lies that say a lie is a truth… beyond the way they hate the way they do.
What’s love got to do with it? A famous philosopher replies.
It’s got everything within it… it can open your eyes.
We wonder at the hate as we anticipate our enemies end.
And the money we spend… or spent as it is gone has made us make an end.
But endings can be good sometimes, so much is true.
Maybe there is purpose to everything we do.
But the world is big and bad they say… I don’t want to go outside today.
I can’t make a difference… I’ll just sit and regress in my little fence… of life… of time… of energy… of dimes. My world is infinite, but finite too.
For some reason I need to go out and buy new shoes.
Maybe I will go out, after all, today… face the big bad world so my enemies can say… maybe she is worth something anyway.
But to please anyone is this world is not a reason or real plea… only what we do which matters for eternity.
So I will go out today and face the big bad world… maybe then change can start to swirl.
Alexa Faith
Monday, 22 June 2009
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I could go on…
Been able to find it miles away, something so strong it cannot decay,
The scent intoxicating leaves me waiting, anticipating,
But so many other times I thought that it was it, so much so it left me for a fit,
A fit not so right, like when the shoe corner wraps around and squeezes your toe too tight…like when you just cannot hang the picture up quite right.
But somehow something changed, renewed what I could have blamed…renewed what I thought could provide shame.
Rearranged and changed over again, something that has already started has just begun to begin…and this is what we are in.
My heart, our heart, is just the very smallest part,
More to this I know, more to this than what we see or know…He must have something He wants to show…
Could have rejected the idea over and over, because we just cannot always see what we need until things roll over…
But somehow saved from something which would have kept us enslaved…
I know the desire of our hearts are true to what we are supposed to do, it’s something I can see in me, but mostly in you.
Even if this stops and halts still, you and I are the best in the mill,
Only because of the grace that He chose to shed over this place…only because of the light we have chose to embrace.
I saw your face today and it says more than I can say…miles away and still somehow it’s still okay…
And I could go on about you, but know this one thing is true, I truly miss you.
And I could go on about you, but know this one thing is true, I truly love you.
Alexa Faith
(Picture courtesy of Anberlin fan, Randy, MN)
Tuesday, 16 June 2009
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Time to Face Freedom. For Wendy.
Wishing to show some image of hope, I opened up the crystal box, the only thing left from you, the only thing I could see through.
Yet, somehow, the only things to comfort were the clothes left in the wash, to help the dry the tears shed from loosing you.
Wonder what it would be like to see you still alive, to see if you could thrive.
Wonder at the many times you laid down with hope and anger, how many times you did not take the helping hands of a stranger.
Wonder at the bruises you bore, the clothes that you wore, the curtains you tore.
Wonder at the times the liquor got to you before you got to it,
Wonder how much more you could have to tried to live without it.
So the blame goes towards a poisoned liver, and while your daughter was high, the yellow-you made me quiver.
What could I do? What can they do?
The drink had got to you before you got to it,
Wonder how much more you could have tried to live without it.
You are the face my sister, you are the face of the lost before death I embrace.
You are the face my sister, you are the face of the battle some will still face.
And I won't forget you, not one moment as you have flown away, there is so much more to what freedom can say.
It is time to face the freedom and now is the day.
Alexa Faith


